Goodbye Huey

It was really really painful but we have to let go of him.

Here's the story of what really happened... I am sorry for my bad english.

March 3, 2007
I was here in our bedroom when I heard our nanny's daughter shouted "Huey fell off the walker!" I hurriedly get out of the room to get Huey. I saw my brother pick up Huey from the fall. Huey was crying. I am sooo scared at that time. I just hugged him really hard.

March 4, 2007
Evening: Huey started to have fever. I gave him paracetamol every 4 hours.

March 5, 2007
We taught Huey broke his back from the fall thats why we asked the "manghihilot" (the one who massage the body) to take a look at Huey.

March 7, 2007
We bought Huey to his pediatrician at 10am because the fever didn't went down. And he was suffering so much from drinking his milk. I was worried already. The pediatrician said he has a lot of Plegm, thats why she gave Huey an Antibacterial. I continued to gave Huey the medicine the doctor prescribed for 7 days. I am wondering at the time because when the assistant checked his temperature it was normal which is opposite to his temperature at home.

March 8, 2007
We tried the "faith Healer" in our place. Mom told us to try.

March 9, 2007
At 6:00pm we brought Huey to the hospital because he was really losing weight really fast. He doesn't drink his milk nor eat his cereal. I tought he has tonsilitis because when I saw his mouth, it was really swollen. He was also vomitting color brown mucus. He was really dehydrated. I am really really worried. But when the doctor in the ER (not Huey's pedia) said it is only tonsilitis and continue to give him the one which Huey's pedia prescribed. I am relieved because Huey won't be confined to the hospital anymore. We went home knowing Huey will be fine. I gave Huey water and milk by medicine dropper because he can't sip from his bottle. We went to bed by 2:00am.

March 10, 2007
Jun was awakened by how Huey breathe at 4:30am. Jun said it was different from his normal breathing. He taught it was me. He saw a lot of brown mucus in his mouth. Jun waked me up and I hurriedly got the bag of Huey, prepared things needed and we went to the hospital really fast. I am holding Huey and talk to him as much as I can. I told him I love him and hold on. We arrived at the hospital at 5:00am and proceeded to the emergency room. I got pissed off the doctor there because she was so sleepy and kept on yawning. She kept on repeating and repeating her questions about Huey's information. Duh??? Does she know why she's there? Does she know everyone who is in the ER is so worried already and she was taking everything sooo easy? grrr!!

The nurse put the IV in Huey's hand but his veins are collapsed. So she inserted the IV to his feet. She also put oxygen to Huey because he was having difficulties in breathing. We then transferred to a semi-private room. There is no private room available at the time.

Mom went home to get additional things needed for the hospital. I was relieved when I saw Huey fighting back. He was talking to me and smiling and I am happy to see him like that. I was beside him all along. I also lay on his bed because I wanted him near me.

Huey's pedia checked him. She said she will be back because Huey was coping already. After the doctor leaved the room, Jun decided to went home as well... Before Jun leave the room, Huey looked at him really long, without blinking his eyes. I said " Pa, Huey is looking at you." And then Jun leaved the room. After 25 minutes mom went out to call dad and everyone because Mom was feeling different to what Huey looks like. I was with my Uncle Tojoe in the room. I hugged Huey and watched the television and the looked at Huey again. I notice that Huey is not blinking his eyes and he is not breathing anymore. I shouted "Uncle! Uncle! Huey!". Uncle Tojoe called for help. Me? I was on the bed with Huey holding his feet. In total shock I didn't felt anything. I didn't cried, I didn't panicked, I didn't felt anything! I was there for 10 minutes seeing the doctors revive Huey. I saw mom hugging Huey crying... Me? nothing. I didn't felt anything still. Until my aunt asked me to get out. That was the time I burst into tears. I am calling Jun's name as I cry. It was really really painful! I heard the doctor telling us if the doctors should stop pumping Huey already because it was already 5 tries. They told the doctor to wait for Jun.

And then Jun arrived. He went to the room straight and saw Huey without the doctors already. Huey was being prepared to his position and cleaned the blood from his mouth. Jun burst into tears and I went to him and hugged him very very tight. Jun was shaking his head. He cannot accept the fact that he was away when Huey cuts his breath. My mother in law kept on telling us that it was God's plan, that we have to accept it.

We then proceeded to the Funeral Parlor. We stayed in the car crying and crying and crying. My two Uncles bought Huey inside the funeral parlor. They said it will be 6 hours before embalming Huey. We waited there for 6 hours and then we went home.

The coffin wasn't ready yet so we put Huey to the table and covered him with baby net. He looks like he was sleeping so we didn't worry much on him. I am not thinking of Huey a lot because I don't wanna cry. I am not thinking that Huey was gone. I am thinking he was just there sleeping.

There are a lot of children visiting us. They taught Huey was sleeping. I remember one boy told his playmates to keep quiet because Huey was sleeping. I am so happy because they aren't mourning... they are not sad of Huey's passing. I am happy because there are so many people who loves us. I want us to remember Huey with happiness. He was really an angel to us. Goodbye Huey! We will miss you so much! We love you!

To all of those who offered a prayer for Huey and for Jun and I... A big thank you to all of you! It really helps us to cope up. We are still sad about what happened but we are trying to recover. Thank you so much to all of you. Thank you thank you thank you soooo much!

P.S.
On Huey's death certificate, the cause of death was Respiratory Failure and Septocemia(Infection to the blood). But my Sister in law which is a doctor said it might not be Septocemia since they tested Huey's blood friday night. They should told us that his blood was infected. We don't have the copy of the CBC because they got it from us the time the Medical technologist tested Huey's blood.